It’s another spaghetti time. We just celebrated our tenth month as a couple tonight. My partner spent extra hours in the office as usual. Yet he made sure the rest of our special night will be all about communication – verbal and non-verbal. It was ecstatic, if you know what I mean.
I love the way everything is getting better for us. You know you’re on the right track when in the middle of all the vagueness and sometimes, arguments, you just see that one clear thing – he, us.
I have always told myself that have I met him earlier, I would have not succumbed to the mistreatment I have enjoyed from my own self. But, as he always reminds me, things happen for a reason. Honestly, I never believed it until the day I met him and decided I will nurture whatever relationship may come up between us. I was lucky enough, he liked me too. It was even unexpected when he fell in love with me right after learning about my health condition. There was a line from him that clings steadfastly in my thoughts, “So what if someone has it or not?” True enough, rarely has it become an issue.
I am done with all the sexual experiments. He is the complete opposite. The thought of sleeping with another man other than his partner sounds like a terrible nightmare for him. I am the third man he loves and for the record, he always had long relationships. If you ever heard about the term introversion, you would understand how he wants to focus all of himself to that one person. And I, even though I can claim myself as a good househusband now, am still guilty of the reality – I am wasted. He couldn’t enjoy the best sex with me. And for sure, I am not worthy. Yet, he never makes me feel that way – never.
He is my first boyfriend. I have been linked to some girls before and I still get jealous sometimes when I see other guys with their gorgeous girlfriend or wife, especially with a baby. I still like girls a lot. He knows it. But as my bestfriend, who happens to be a straight guy, said, “Whether this one lasts or not, the important thing is you do not escape it this time.”
I love my life partner with all my heart. And there is no doubt he loves me just the same. And while at this point this seems like a perfect bliss, I can say that the words bliss, now and forever are just the same.
Man, it’s not even Valentine’s Day and I’m mushy. My wildest imagination did not give any idea that a love like this would come at the most unexpected time. I could not even remember any noteworthy act that I have done to deserve this kind of love. Whatever this is, God, thank you for giving me more than just enough.
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